Hello! I barely slept a wink last night but I'm still in a great mood.
I'd like to be the first to admit that I am 20 years old and am far from knowing everything. I have a lot to learn about everything, including myself still. I think that people are constantly changing and even at my age it isn't quite determined who I will be (boy my psych teacher would disagree).
So now let me surprise you all, much as I surprised myself... I got my belly button pierced today. For real, no chickening out this time!
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Friday, September 17, 2010
I'm really the master of not doing well to show how I've changed. I really have but when you throw in everything else I'm still working on it. It's a different kind of strong. A strong I don't have to be all of the time so I don't have as much experience with dealing with it. Each time I get better, I truly do. I still have a ways to go though. So just give me the chance to prove that it is something that I can do. I'm realizing my mistakes now, which is more than I used to do. Now I just need to never let myself make those mistakes. I got clingy. So what? It's not as bad as it used to be and it won't get worse.
It may not be for a long time but it is for some time. I may not freak out about it as usual. All I want to do though is talk while we can. I want a lot more actually but for now we'll just work with this. Lol
Haha wow, I haven't written a blog like this in a while. At least this time, it's about me and not a love-crazed, can't-live-without-you me. Like I said, I really am changing and I don't think you've seen or realized it all yet. :)
It may not be for a long time but it is for some time. I may not freak out about it as usual. All I want to do though is talk while we can. I want a lot more actually but for now we'll just work with this. Lol
Haha wow, I haven't written a blog like this in a while. At least this time, it's about me and not a love-crazed, can't-live-without-you me. Like I said, I really am changing and I don't think you've seen or realized it all yet. :)
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Not Sleepy Yet
I haven't written a blog this late at night in quite a while. I'm not really tired yet so what better thing to do? lol
Oh ya, I could put away those clothes I've been putting off all week. I truly do hate folding and putting away clothes. Washing them is another story though. I don't mind that at all.
I don't know. Tonight I'm kind of in a relaxed mood. I'm looking forward to tomorrow night. Jeff and I are supposed to skype :) Hopefully it actually happens. Not to sound too negative or anything. It's just that well, we never do it. lol. He's out having fun (at least I hope he is, but not too much fun) tonight. I'm sitting home. I guess it's good practice though. I need to get used to not talking to him before bed again. Some habits are just hard to break though.
WOW he's been the subject of like my last 3 posts. I'm in need of something new to talk about. lol. Not much is happening in my life right now though (and trust me I'm not complaining, I like it that way) thus there isn't much to talk about. :)
Maybe I will have more next time... Until then.
Oh ya, I could put away those clothes I've been putting off all week. I truly do hate folding and putting away clothes. Washing them is another story though. I don't mind that at all.
I don't know. Tonight I'm kind of in a relaxed mood. I'm looking forward to tomorrow night. Jeff and I are supposed to skype :) Hopefully it actually happens. Not to sound too negative or anything. It's just that well, we never do it. lol. He's out having fun (at least I hope he is, but not too much fun) tonight. I'm sitting home. I guess it's good practice though. I need to get used to not talking to him before bed again. Some habits are just hard to break though.
WOW he's been the subject of like my last 3 posts. I'm in need of something new to talk about. lol. Not much is happening in my life right now though (and trust me I'm not complaining, I like it that way) thus there isn't much to talk about. :)
Maybe I will have more next time... Until then.
Love The Way You Lie
Today's song of the day is...
Really HOT. LOL
Love the way you lie by Eminem and Rhianna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U
Really HOT. LOL
Love the way you lie by Eminem and Rhianna
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I Need You Now
Today kind of sucks. It wasn't a bad day at all. I feel very confident about my Spanish test. I got my last quiz back today and got a 100% on it! Yay! My next test to conquer is on Wednesday. It should be pretty easy though because it's in my computer class which is basically a review from high school.
Back on subject now... today sucks because it's one of those days where I miss Jeff a lot! I don't know what triggered it or why, but I just miss him. It really isn't any fun because he's been so busy this week and we haven't been able to talk much. That isn't really that bad because I knew very well that this would be a very busy month for him. I think theh only reason I'm even thinking twice about it is because of everything that's coming up soon. Haha, it may sound stupid but if everything were back to normal this would all be a hell of a lot easier. That's too complicated and long for me to explain in here though. Plus well, I have to keep some stuff personal. lol.
Ok, I'm done. If I keep going on then it's just going to get emotional and I've been doing really well with not being emotional.
Back on subject now... today sucks because it's one of those days where I miss Jeff a lot! I don't know what triggered it or why, but I just miss him. It really isn't any fun because he's been so busy this week and we haven't been able to talk much. That isn't really that bad because I knew very well that this would be a very busy month for him. I think theh only reason I'm even thinking twice about it is because of everything that's coming up soon. Haha, it may sound stupid but if everything were back to normal this would all be a hell of a lot easier. That's too complicated and long for me to explain in here though. Plus well, I have to keep some stuff personal. lol.
Ok, I'm done. If I keep going on then it's just going to get emotional and I've been doing really well with not being emotional.
Failure of a Picture
I had a picture I really liked but when I went to put it on here it was too small to read the words. :(
Basically it was a line graph of events in a relationship and the amount of stress or calmness you are under during them. It was funny and it made me want to just say that facebook should just get rid of the relationship status. Just sayin. lol
Basically it was a line graph of events in a relationship and the amount of stress or calmness you are under during them. It was funny and it made me want to just say that facebook should just get rid of the relationship status. Just sayin. lol
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Making Room for New
Today is one of those days where I want to just bare my thoughts and feelings and let them all out. I'm not stressing over anything that I say today, it's just time to get it all out so I can make room for new stuff. lol. What I am stressing about though, is the amount of clothes I have to put away. Why do I always do ALL of my laundry at once?
It feels so weird to write about some of the stuff that I used to write about on a daily basis. I mean, I'm not about to sound all obsessed again, I'm past that now. I'm not going to be crying while I write or write about crying. Oh man, do I have anything left that I can write about?? haha.
The last week or so has been really great. Everything that's gone on between us has made me feel really good. Today though, I just have that bad feeling. My chest is tight and something doesn't seem right. I don't what would lead me to feeling like this. There really hasn't been anything to point me in this direction. Maybe it's not related to us but to my spanish test tomorrow. I'm not sure.
Back on a happier note though. I didn't know how I would feel when things started to seem normal between us again. Right now, I'm worried that I'm being a bit annoying and needy. I'm not meaning to at all. To me, the closer I can pull him in and have him around then more likely we'll continue on the track we are on now. I'm pretty sure though, that it'd be quite the opposite. The best news for that is that soon I won't be able to text him and expect instant answers. It will be the reality check that I think I'm in need of. But then again, for all that I know this could all just be me. I could be thinking into it way too much and am not really being needy or annoying at all. I suppose it's something I should ask.
I may not feel 100% better after writing blogs like this one but I do feel better. Just getting this stuff out at all makes it better. I can let all of my emotions out in here and not be an emotional time bomb in real life. By the way, today I'm in a blogging mood so I'm sure I'll write again before bed. Who knows, maybe I'll have good news to share? Or maybe I won't...
It feels so weird to write about some of the stuff that I used to write about on a daily basis. I mean, I'm not about to sound all obsessed again, I'm past that now. I'm not going to be crying while I write or write about crying. Oh man, do I have anything left that I can write about?? haha.
The last week or so has been really great. Everything that's gone on between us has made me feel really good. Today though, I just have that bad feeling. My chest is tight and something doesn't seem right. I don't what would lead me to feeling like this. There really hasn't been anything to point me in this direction. Maybe it's not related to us but to my spanish test tomorrow. I'm not sure.
Back on a happier note though. I didn't know how I would feel when things started to seem normal between us again. Right now, I'm worried that I'm being a bit annoying and needy. I'm not meaning to at all. To me, the closer I can pull him in and have him around then more likely we'll continue on the track we are on now. I'm pretty sure though, that it'd be quite the opposite. The best news for that is that soon I won't be able to text him and expect instant answers. It will be the reality check that I think I'm in need of. But then again, for all that I know this could all just be me. I could be thinking into it way too much and am not really being needy or annoying at all. I suppose it's something I should ask.
I may not feel 100% better after writing blogs like this one but I do feel better. Just getting this stuff out at all makes it better. I can let all of my emotions out in here and not be an emotional time bomb in real life. By the way, today I'm in a blogging mood so I'm sure I'll write again before bed. Who knows, maybe I'll have good news to share? Or maybe I won't...
If I Die Young
I'm going to stop titling them song of the day. I was trying to see if I'd posted this one already and I had to go through all the old ones to find out. lol I'm still not fully convinced. I'm thinking I just skipped over it. Oh well.
Today's song of the day is...
If I Die Young by The Band Perry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJqUN9TClM
Today's song of the day is...
If I Die Young by The Band Perry
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJqUN9TClM
Monday, September 13, 2010
Stalling
I have had no energy today. Well, actually I did in spanish right after I drank my hot chocolate. Anyway, I am in a good mood nontheless. Classes went by fast today. I got a new bra. lol. It's super cute and comfy and under $20. I recommend the Pink push-up bras by VS. Oh, so enough about my bra.
I'm watching Everybody's Fine and I'm sitting here thinking of how much Robert Di Nero reminds me of my Pawpaw. They look a lot of like and even sound somewhat alike. Makes me miss my family back east. I'm ready for the holidays so I can get back there and see them.
By the way, this blog really was me just stalling once more on putting my clothes away. I really just need to do it.
I'm watching Everybody's Fine and I'm sitting here thinking of how much Robert Di Nero reminds me of my Pawpaw. They look a lot of like and even sound somewhat alike. Makes me miss my family back east. I'm ready for the holidays so I can get back there and see them.
By the way, this blog really was me just stalling once more on putting my clothes away. I really just need to do it.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Redskin Poem
It's football season!
Thank heavens too.
I love the game.
Portis
McNabb
and Moss too
Get it together boys
Superbowl here we come.
Beat those Cowboys!
Go Redskins Go!
Thank heavens too.
I love the game.
Portis
McNabb
and Moss too
Get it together boys
Superbowl here we come.
Beat those Cowboys!
Go Redskins Go!
Allergies
Hmm... it's been a while since I've spilled my thoughts and feelings on here. Shall I do it again? I actually don't know. I'm just going to write tonight. If it ends up being important and deep then so be it. I have gotten to the point though where I can spill those thoughts and feelings to someone though.
Right now I'm suffering from allergies. My nose is really itchy and sniffly. lol. It probably sounds like I've been crying. I swear that I haven't. I'm in a really good mood tonight. No particular reason why, but I don't really need one.
I can't seem to gather my thoughts so I'm going to call it quits for this post. No worries though, I have another one in mind already.
Right now I'm suffering from allergies. My nose is really itchy and sniffly. lol. It probably sounds like I've been crying. I swear that I haven't. I'm in a really good mood tonight. No particular reason why, but I don't really need one.
I can't seem to gather my thoughts so I'm going to call it quits for this post. No worries though, I have another one in mind already.
Song of the Day
Today's song is...
Erase My Scars by Evans Blue
I just really like this song and it was on the radio today so... why not? lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bP_zC57IXrE
Erase My Scars by Evans Blue
I just really like this song and it was on the radio today so... why not? lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bP_zC57IXrE
Saturday, September 11, 2010
When The World Stopped Turning
We all remember where we were 9 years ago today. Me, well I was in the 6th grade. It was my first year here in Arkansas. I remember lots of people getting checked out early that day and teachers phones ringing more than usual. It wasn't until the bus ride home though that I found out a bit of what had happened. The older kids had found out in school and were talking about it. When I got home, I turned on Nick for Zan as usual. I'll never forget that it was even scrolling across the bottom of Nick. I called my parents crying and I just couldn't seem to stop. I was only in the 6th grade, but I knew that it was a horrible thing and no good would come from it.
So, where were you on 9/11?
So, where were you on 9/11?
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