Blonde Driver

Treat Me Like A Princess

I know it seems horrible to judge someone on looks but you have to be able to stand the way they look right? lol I've never been this way before, but suddenly I feel like I'm a lot nicer than the rest of the world.
I'm hot. It's taken me forever to realize that, but I am. I'm not settling for anyone less than me. I'm done being treated like shit. I need to be treated like a Princess. For someone to put me first because I'm always going to put them first.
Somewhere out there is the right guy for me. I'll just keep searching until I find him. No more making excuses for guys... especially if they wouldn't do it for me. Actually, no more treating a guy in a way I don't think he'd treat me. I'd move for him but would he for me? I'd come get him at 3 am if needed but would he me? I'd give him presents for no reason but would give me them?
It's a new look out on relationships for me. It's one of the steps I'm trying to take towards being less stressed. Let's see how this works for me.
(lol, by the way... I'm more or less just rambling. I'm not really already looking to get back into a serious relationship... give me two full weeks first. lol j/k)

He Did It

Dr. Oz & Stress

Right now I'm watching a Dr. Oz episode that I recorded earlier this week. The main topic of it is stress. I know that I am an incredibly over stressed person and I don't want that to be anymore. So, I'm on the quest to find ways to destress and to even limit myself on the amount of stress that I have.
The first thing Dr. Oz is talking about is stress eating and what to eat instead of simple sugar foods. He recommends eating salmon twice a week. I've never had salmon but am interested in trying it. He also suggests vitamins B & C!
Exercise is the next way to destress. He said that climbing stairs for 7 minutes a day reduces your chance of heart disease by 2/3.
The next is to massage your hand for 5 minutes to release cortisol! Aroma Thearpy is also in this category. Take lavender oil, add 10 drops of it to 2 cups of water in a spray bottle. Then spray it throughout the house.
The last one is to find what triggers your stress. Worrying about the the past or the future, looking down on yourself, bad thoughts, and more.

I know that I stress way to much about the future. Most of the time it's about school and future career and that sort of a thing. From now on I want to try to take life a day at a time (except for during tests). I want to start working out more after classes. I'm not going to stress during work. Afterall I am just working at subway. There isn't really a reason that I should stress so much over that job. They don't pay me enough to shorten my life through stress. Lol.
So how do you deal with your stress? What causes you the most stress?

Beer Crossing

Already Getting Stronger

Today is a good day. I mean I'm sick. I feel like shit. I did look cute though. Camo pants, burgundy shirt, and my hair in a bun. :). But I wasn't sad today. I wouldn't say I was happy but I wasn't depressed like I have been. It has to start somewhere. It's like Sara Evans song... "I'm getting a little bit stronger. Just a little bit stronger."
I may post again later. Maybe a picture and song.
Until Next Time.

Moving On is Never Easy

Moving on is never easy. I'm going to screw up. I'm going to say something I'll regret. It's all part of the process though.

I'm really trying to get positive about this whole situation. It's just going to take time. Having someone as yours for 2 years then having to go back to just friends isn't easy. I know I can do it.

Just bare with me for a bit. :)

Friends

I truly have the best friends in the world. They have stuck with me through so much and are as patient as a saint. I love them all and am so sorry the last few months have been so rough. I know my being constantly upset over guys couldn't have been fun. So I promise that we are on the upside of that finally. Hopefully any guy talk will be good from now on. I just have to meet some guys first though. So I'd like to take this chance to thank you all.
Emily- You are always there for me. I really enjoy our lunches together and the occasional shopping and photography trips. You truly are a great friend and you have no idea how lucky I consider myself to still have you as a friend. Thank you for always being there, for offering your advice, and for loving to take pictures. LOL. By the way... 120 days!!!
Veronica- I love you. I feel like I need to be there for you more. You're always there for me. I know that I can come to you for unbiased advice and I treasure that greatly. I can't wait til we hang out next, lots to catch up on.
Sarah M.- Girl we need to hang out! I miss you. Thanks for talking to me on Facebook when I'm up late and can't sleep. Also, thanks for always texting back quickly. :)
Sarah G.- I really hope we get to meet in person someday. We seem to have a lot in common. Thanks for always letting me vent. I'm always here you need to too. I hope you and Josh find an amazing house in NC. Kodi needs a big yard to cause trouble in. lol
Kathy- I'm glad you and Chris are night owls. Thanks for being on facebook for the occasional late night vent.
Jesse- I really had a lot of fun hanging out with you. I wish you would have stuck around though. I know I could have treated you differently. I should have always said what was on my mind. Thank you for always listening and offering your opinion. I was just too blind to see it. :( I hope that you change your mind and decide to give me another chance.
Jeff- This one was hard to write. There really is a lot that I could say but I'm going to stick to the basics ;). Thank you for everything. Thanks for some wonderful memories. Thank you for always being so patient and understanding. Any man that remains patient while clothing shopping with me, really is great. LOL. I hope I set the bar high for the next girl because you set it high for me for the next guy. I know that you are right though, someone great will eventually come along for me. I'm glad that through it all we are still friends. You are one of my best friends and I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you to talk to sometimes. Now I have a guys opinion and view on things :)

Unfriended... really?

I had not really done this yet. I'd been putting it off. I didn't think it was real. Here it is a week later though and still no word from you. I guess it's serious. It's just something I never thought you would do. I really thought you were different, better. I was wrong though. No matter the reasoning behind it, how could you think that completely cutting me out of your life was a good thing? Why is it always the guys who get to make those decisions? Why can't it ever be mutual? How does this make you so much different and better like you claimed? It doesn't.
If your goal was to piss me off, then you have succeeded. This is just childish.
How is it that you liked me so much and all of a sudden you're gone without a word? I seriously was having a great time getting to know you and was excited to get to know you better. I really wanted to. You know how some people claim to know someone is they're one shortly after just meeting them? To be 100% honest, I was actually becoming one of those people. I'm an incredibly picky and easily annoyed person. In the four months that I have known you, I've found only one thing that I didn't like about you. One thing that honestly, I think you'll grow out of. That's a huge thing for me. Generally, everyone has a ton of things that I don't like about them. Just trust me on that.
What am I though? Why nothing more than a hopeless romantic. I can't help it. I've always been that way I suppose. Perhaps that's all that I ever will be. I just wish I knew why you did this to me. Why you dropped me cold with no reason at all. I've done everything besides show up to your door trying to figure it out. So just man up and tell me what's up!! Until you do, I don't know if I can get over you. I don't know if I want to.

Hearts Tell All

To Do Nothing

You know those days when you know that you have a TON of stuff that you should be doing but you don't feel like doing any of it. Well, today is one of those days for me. I'm sitting here on the couch watching The Vampire's Assistant. I'm not doing anything productive. I am, however, hungry. I'd really like so chips and salsa right now actually. Maybe it's not a bad thing though. Maybe all I need is to do nothing though. To just sit around on the couch and forget the last week. Too bad I can't do that today though... perhaps tomorrow.

Drama, Drama, Drama

I would say this weekend was really relaxing and just what I needed, but that would be a lie. That's what this weekend should have been. It should have made me forget all of this stupid drama going on in my life. I really do hate drama. I feel like I'm back in freaking high school and I was not crazy about high school.
Sometimes I wonder what is up with all of this. Why do I let myself get here and why do I put up with it?
Anyway though, I have a Spanish test in the morning. Off to bed for me. I'm planning on going to Starbucks to study since I really only have to show up to my first class long enough to turn in my work. :) I'm sure if I take my laptop I'll get bored and post there.
Until Next Time.

Phone Sex

Tell Me Why

I thought I finally had it all figured out.
I thought I knew what I wanted.
I've had a great time with you.
I had figured out you were what I wanted.  
I knew I wouldn't be in this situation with you.
So when I decided to make my decision you were on my mind.
You have been on my mind since.
But what am I supposed to do now?
Now that I am here without you?
This is what you wanted and is what I want.
So why do you ignore me?
Why do you hurt me so?
Just tell me why!

Roses are Red