Talk to Me

I'm very proud of myself at the moment. I made a goal and gosh darn it if I'm not sticking to it (thus far). It is really hard and I am really stressed right now. Ok, so not really stressed. Just a normal amount for me. I was really stressed earlier when I thought I was going to get in trouble for work. That's another story though and I'm not getting into that. Haha all I'd do is bitch about someone I work with and that's no fun for anyone else.
So in my mind, today went a lot differently than it actually did. Although that happens a lot with me.
My sunburn still hurts... very bad. It hurts worse now than this morning and I have no idea how I'm going to wear a bra the 6 hours I'm at work tomorrow. If only I had a strapless one that actually stayed up. TMI I know. I'm praying for a slow day tomorrow. We close at 4 but luckily I'm only there til 2. It's been really busy the last few days, but last week our Sunday rush didn't really come til 1ish and lasted til 4ish. We are having a company picnic tomorrow but I'm not going. No one, except my manager, from my store is going and I don't really feel like swimming.
I got my board shorts today! Super excited about that. I wore my white ones today actually :) Sadly the black ones don't have a pocket but the super cool Fox graphic makes up for that.
Oh my they way... I'm sunburned in my head too. Lol. So in a week when it's peeling I swear its not really bad dandruff. :)
Talk to Me!!

Song of the Day

This song just I guess is kind of how I'm feeling today. Sometimes a song says it all.
I love Nickelback and a lot of their songs have great lyrics. So when you can't say it out loud, be it you don't want or you're scared to, let a song speak for you. :)

Nickelback - Far Away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4y-RzVGrHg

Sunburned!

Yesterday I had a good friend over I had not seen since I graduated. She is moving soon and I wanted to hang out one last time so she came over to go swimming. We had a great time in the pool relaxing and catching up. 3 hours later and no sunscreen though, we had one VERY sunburned Samantha. I look like a lobster and am starting to get blisters on my shoulders. I am; however, keeping complaining to a minimum. It is 100% my fault. My solution... to laugh and joke about it as much as possible.
Zan asked me whats for dinner at red lobster last night and I said me.
I've told my mom multiple times to come rub lotion and gel all over my naked top half. lol
I'm in an incredibly cute dress trying to distract the eye from the redness.
and so on.
So sure, I'm in a lot of pain and it hurts to wear a strapless top because of my chest and it hurts to wear a bra because of my shoulders. Guess I'll just have to go topless. :)

Let this be a lesson to everyone... don't think you won't get burnt just because you've gotten tan. Put something on, even if it's just spf 15 (what I usually wear). You don't want to feel like I do right now. Trust me!

Chase Commercial

12:06 A.M. hmm... I don't know what to say. It's been a long day, even though I didn't do much. I went to work for 3 hours then to the movies with Zan. I guess it's just because I haven't been sleeping well. It's no big deal though. Hopefully tonight I sleep better. I'm thinking of taking a Melatonin and Valerian Root. The two usually knock me out and keep me out. Worse happens is I fall asleep on a raft in the pool tomorrow. Oh darn, that would be a shame. lol
So I just saw a Chase commercial. Um, wow! I can garuantee you that if I had just gotten married, I would not be sitting in the bed in my dress still and taking pictures of checks with my phone to deposit them then. Just sayin. Priorities!! lol
Haha. Night everyone.

Song of the Day

Today's song is...

Dragonfly by Shaman's Harvest
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M4sQfHD_b_E

Sleepy Work

I can't sleep. I actually haven't tried to yet but that's beside the point. I think my neighbors are having a hump day party (not the reason I'm still up). I just want to say awesome! lol. You know those days when you just don't want to go to work? I can already feel that tomorrow is going to be one of those days. I don't really know why. I'm only working 3 hours, I'm just dreading it for some reason. Everyone has those days though.
I really do need to sleep. I haven't slept well in a while and it's starting to get to me. Not to the point where I'm emotional because of it but to the point where I have a stupid headache because of it. :( Eventually though right? haha. Sleep when I'm dead.
As for now, I'll keep watching this episode of South Park. Then it's off to try to sleep for me. I've got work from 10-1 tomorrow. Then off to the movies with Zan.

Song of the Day

Today's song is...
Stuck Like Glue by Sugarland

Watch them perform it here!
http://www.stucklikeglue.com/

M&MSkittle

I AM ME

So I was thinking today that I should write less about my incredibly complicated love life. After thinking more though, I realized that it's better that I get it out here than hold it all inside and be a stressed, nervous wreck. So I say Fuck It. This is my blog and I am going to write about whatever is on my mind. I don't care if it's love, hate, crude jokes, or pictures. :)
Anyone able to tell my mood tonight? lol. Actually, I'm in a great mood. I'm just not taking any shit right now. Not even from myself. :) I'm sick of others telling me what to do or what they think about me and my business. I believe them, I let them get in my head. Then I question myself. I question those around me. I question my friends, my family, and my love. Nobody can make me feel inferior anymore. Nobody can act like they know what's best for me. I am ME. I know what is best for me.

Always Waiting

Why do I keep doing this?

I'm always up waiting.
Waiting for things to change.
Waiting for things to go back to how they were.
Waiting for a call, a text, an email.

I just keep waiting.
I can't even imagine what people think.
They wonder why I wait?
Why I put up with it all?

It's easy to explain.
But at the same time, no one will ever understand.
It's a never-ending love.
And I'll just keep waiting.

You can ignore me.
You can not text, call, or email.
You can treat me like shit.
And you can walk away.

No matter what...
I'll always be waiting.
I love you no matter how much it hurts.
I'll stick with you through the rain.

I love you even though I don't say it anymore.
I only hope that you can love me still too.

Bashing the Coast Guard

So I had to stop watching CNN tonight because there was a guy bashing the Coast Guard on it. That probably sounds stupid but honestly it's been one of those nights. I don't really want to think about the Coast Guard, CNN, or anything of that nature.
Actually, I don't really know what all is up. I just know I'm a little mad right now. I'm refraining from putting to much because well... I'm working on not saying stuff I'll regret the next morning. So far it's working out for me, in case you were wondering. :)
I think I'll probably write again before bed. Until then though...

Hmm...

Why do I let you make me feel this way??

A Little Bit Stronger

The song that's been stuck in my head all day today.
Sara Evans- A Little Bit Stronger

http://pulsemusic.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=country&action=display&thread=97625&page=1

Female Brain

I think the chocolate needs to be smaller and shiny things bigger... at least for me. :)

Crossroads

Well, I've had a good few past days. Hopefully the trend continues. :) Today I've been a bit of a fatty though. Lol bagel bites for lunch, doritos for a snack when I got off, followed by some skittles and dr. pepper. Now I have a junk food high and a belly ache. Lol
Alright everyone. I'm at a crossroads. Saving Abel is playing at georges majestic lounge on Tuesday. I can't decide to go or not. I'd probably go by myself, which is no big deal since I'm guessing there will be a lot of people there. I just can't decide to go or not. Ive seen them before but it's been two(ish) years. I didn't know much of their music then unlike now. So... What to do?
I guess it's time for me to start dinner. Actually, I have to still figure out what to make.