Strength

I can be strong. I will be strong. This is only because I am sick. I will resist emailing you already. I can do this. I'm going to wait til the day I decided to email you. This really sucks by the way. Why is it this hard? Is it just because I'm sick? It's not even like we've been talking a lot but it feels that way. I admit that I miss you and that this is really hard. The whole thing is. I'm still crazy confused about everything. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel or what I'm supposed to do. I'm open to any advice. I guess for now this will be outlet. I'll write here everytime I want to write him. Be prepared.